Yes We Can.

i never thought i'd see it happen. yet i am as hopeful as i have ever been. i cannot believe but i can believe we have chance to make a change now.

thank god no more republicans!!! we even won senate amazing!!!

this day will go down in history and i am thankful that i am a part of it. i can tell my kids and grandkids and anyone who wants to know that i voted for a man, a black man, a black/white man, a young black/white man that appealed to all people. he is a man that we are trusting with our lives. a record number of young people voted. too many times young people were excited and seemed encouraged about voting but time in they threw in the towel. they just didn't show up thinking their vote just didn't count. but this time....this time one man encouraged them. he stood for hope that our generation never had before. if he does nothing else in his admistration he can stand tall knowing that he has already changed america. he untied and bought together so many young, middle age, black, hispanic, white, men and women---to decide on one thing. the fate of the us.

my prayer is that god will guide him and his heart. his speech came in and it was amazing. i cried. to see and hear his passion, his warmth, his honesty. i believe that he believes we should be in a different place in this world. and as he said it will take time it won't happen over night. but we have time now. we have 4 years to see a change that bush promised. a change that he tricked us into thinking we would get.

we all must keep obama and his camp in our prayers. it's not an easy task. there is a lot to clean up to start new & more important to face. he said it himself - for those that he does not have thier support he hopes that they still understand he will be their president.

we must all pray for his and hs family's safety. for now they will be tested. they will be watched closely. and we have to remember that they are human. they are flesh and must be closely guarded for.

i am standing back and just amazed at this. Obama is our next president. i hope that we can heal from the bush administration. i hope that he can bring us through the hardest time our generation is facing.

we will see....... but i have hope that YES WE CAN.

Believer

ENOUGH SAID.

Women's Flaw

The One Flaw In Women


By the time the Lord made woman,
He was into his sixth day of working overtime.
An angel appeared and said,
'Why are you spending so much time on this one?'
And the Lord answered, 'Have you seen my spec sheet on her?
She has to be completely washable, but not plastic,
have over 200 movable parts, all replaceable
and able to run on diet coke and leftovers,
have a lap that can hold four children at one time,
have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart
-and she will do everything
with only two hands.'

The angel was astounded at the requirements.
'Only two hands!? No way!
And that's just on the standard model?
That's too much work for one day.
Wait until tomorrow to finish.'

'But I won't , ' the Lord protested.
'I am so close to finishing this creation that is so close to my own heart.
She already heals herself when she is sick
AND can work 18 hour days.'

The angel moved closer and touched the woman.
'But you have made her so soft, Lord.'

'She is soft,' the Lord agreed,
'but I have also made her tough.
You have no idea what she can endure or accomplish.'

'Will she be able to think?', asked the angel.

The Lord replied,
'Not only will she be able to think,
she will be able to reason and negotiate.'

The angel then noticed something,
and reaching out, touched the woman's cheek.
'Oops, it looks like you have a leak in this model.
I told you that you were trying to put too much into this one.'

'That's not a leak,'
the Lord corrected,
'that's a tear!'
'What's the tear for?' the angel asked.

The Lord said, 'The tear is her way of expressing her joy,
her sorrow, her pain, her disappointment, her love,
her loneliness, her grief and her pride.'
The angel was impressed.
'You are a genius, Lord.
You thought of everything!
Woman is truly amazing.'

And she is!
Women have strengths that amaze men.
They bear hardships and they carry burdens,
but they hold happiness,
love and joy.
They smile when they want to scream.
They sing when they want to cry.
They cry when they are happy
and laugh when they are nervous.
They fight for what they believe in.
They stand up to injustice.
They don't take 'no' for an answer
when they believe there is a better solution.
They go without so their family can have.
They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.
They love unconditionally.
They cry when their children excel
and cheer when their friends get awards.
They are happy when they hear about
a birth or a wedding.
Their hearts break when a friend dies.
They grieve at the loss of a family member, yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left.
They know that a hug and a kiss
can heal a broken heart.
Women come in all shapes, sizes and colors.
They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you
to show how much they care about you.
The heart of a woman is what makes the world keep turning.
They bring joy, hope and love.
They have compassion and ideals.
They give moral support to their family and friends.
Women have vital things to say and everything to give

HOWEVER, IF THERE IS ONE TINY FLAW IN WOMEN,

IT IS THAT THEY FORGET THEIR WORTH.

Make it Work

This can only be as good as we both make it
Guess sometimes its gonna hurt (yes sometimes its gonna hurt)
We can be as happy as we want to be ...
But we gotta make it work
We gotta make it work...

it's always nice to be around people you haven't been in a long time. it brings you back to that place where you feel happy.....

only time will tell

Couldn't concentrate today at work. so much work to do but had no desire to do it. i just kept thinking about the words... "they found tumors.." a friend of mine's son may have cancer. so sad to think he's just 1 yrs old. how unfair is that. what did he do to deserve such a thing. his whole life ahead of him. dreams, playfulness everything. he hasn't even learned how to walk yet and he would have to face a disease that has taken the best of grown men and women. he can't even express how he feels.. i hate to even think about it. the only hope is that children his age w/ this type have a good percentage of making it. but it's still hard to see. to see a child go through something so grown up. to have to explain one day to him what happened. hoping that he wouldn't remember the pain and the sickness. i'm so upset and can't even deal with the thought of this little baby suffering. only time can tell. so i pray for his health, for his family, for his mom. that she have the strength to get through this and be strong for him. but still know it's okay to be weak and vulnerable for her little baby. so i send my prayers and hopeful thoughts out to
Baby Brian.

....the end of life as you know it......

just finished watching P.S. I love you. Great movie. cried,laughed and was inspired. it doesn't matter what it is you do as long as you love it. find what makes you different and go for it. love like it's the end of life as you know it.


so much has happened within this new year. lost my aunt---she was my mom's aunt making her my second. but she was still close to me. she was a pain in the ass that everyone can agree to. calling and asking 50 million questions i guess that's just how she knew how to small talk. funny i can smell her still sometimes. when i'm out i often smell her perfume and it just reminds me of her. the way she loved to dance. the way she loved to show off her legs...she had great legs. her life was not the best. being the other woman did her no justice but she had accepted it. when i was young i never understood her relationship. but now that she's passed it makes perfect sense. she settled for the life she was dealt. makes you think how could she why would she but it was her life. and she still lived it how she knew how.

lost my brother's best friend. went to the funeral and realized how sad life can be. he was a goofy big guy we called him fish lips. he has these big puffy lips and would slur as i imagined a fish would talk if it could. his sister was a highschool friend of mine. we drifted apart during our last year. i never understood why. esp since she lived right around the corner from me. funny how life goes. my best friend from hs lived two blocks from me and i never knew when she was home frm the navy. then my other friend lived a few other blocks from me and i would never visit. people just grow out of each other. i use to think it wasn't possible but i believe it is. ever sit in a room full of old friends and sometimes what made sense before just doesn't anymore. don't get me wrong there are those friends that you can never grow away from. the ones that you may not speak to for years and then the one day you do it all comes back. the reason why you were friends to begin with. ain't life funny.

then recently i lost my lil cuz. she was only 12 and she died of an asthma attack---yup crazy i know. you'd think that this simple disease is just that simple enough to control it with medicine. it was sad to see her. to see her friends from school crying bc this was the first death they has to deal with. to see her lil bro (7) and sister (1) not really understand what's going on. just that big sis was in front of everyone sleeping for a long time. they couldn't comprehend why she wasn't just sleeping in her own bed. sad. after her funeral that monday i went into work and told them i''m changing my schedule. i didn't realize that was the reason at the time. but now i ssee that i subconsciously knew my life had to change. i have to live it each day as it is my last. it just makes sense. live it. live it quietly live it out loud live it however you feel just live it.

i just want to move past all of it and live life for now for tomorrow for the next and on and on. live like as if it's the end of life as you know it......................

Time

Time. we demand so much of. we wish we had more of it. we wish it would slow down. hurry up. they say time heals all wounds but does it really. wounds don't ever really heal. you get a cut you bleed and over time there's still a scar. it's sensitive w/ touch and can even affect how you do certain things. i tell everyone speak truth set your true intentions and it will work out. however at times i am faced w/ whether i believe that or not. if i do speak truth is it coming from the right place. is it a selfish act for me free my own guilt. let someone else carry that burden. when all the while i do not carry it for myself.