Alot on my mind

Have a lot on my mind. Need to blog them down.

So let's see it was my aunt's birthday July 4th - the one that recently past away. God I miss her pain in the ass. She was always asking questions but I would give anything to have to answer anther annoying question from her.

Adam's mom is going through some things health wise and family issues. There's just something to be said about karma. It's like people just do things out of selfishness without ever thinking about how this effects their kids. Now when you're faced w/ losing your child (not through dealth) it's all like why is this happening to me. I feel horrible because I want to comfort her but i have resentment to the situation. I blame her for everything. It's a horrible feeling to blame someone and hold anger towards them. I really wish i didn't. and for some time now i would push those feelings aside and just go about normal conversating and comforting but now i dont know if i can do it.

And today is the day my uncle is in surgery to remove the tumors he has. They are suppose to find out if the cancer has spread. I just pray that everything turns out okay. That God guides those doctors and nurses. and that they are able to remove that bastard of a cancer.

okay back to work it's getting busy!!