Tough Day

Ever felt bothered by something. So much so that you can't think of anything else. Well it seems I'll be consumed with those feelings tonight. Had a not-so-good day at work today. And what's getting me more is the fact that its something so trivial that's bringing up these feelings. Wrote an email to my boss when I got home. Cried a little while I was writing it. Then something unexpected...'an angel' send me a message...
no really
a real message on AIM....
and just as I was writing in the subject line. Didn't send it! Decided to sleep on it.
thanx ------><------

It's funny bc while I was in a vulnerable state...which not too many people see me at..I felt comfortable with myself to share it with a friend. Soo many times so many moments where I feel as I do and I only really turn to the one person who I know loves me unconditionally. Thankful I have him. But I've just been in a place, a journey in my life where I am begining to feel comfortable enough to share it with someone new. Someone I'm oftening helping. Interesting to see the shoe on the foot. Good feeling. Glad that I have someone like them I can turn to.
Sometimes you can become so use to helping others that when it comes to your problems your just solutioned-out. Good...scratch that..Great feeling to remember what being human is and grasp that it is okay.

NoTe To SeLf: Acknowledge those around you more. Appreciate those that do care for you and rest your mind before commiting to a decision....Punto